This or Something Better - by Elisa Stancil Levine (Paperback)

About the Book

A woman's faith in herself is scorched to the core when she flees a California firestorm in the dead of night without alerting a single neighbor. How could this be? As a survivor of childhood trauma, an artist, and a mother she expected so much more of herself. Now everything is up for review.

Book Synopsis

When the Sonoma Complex fire came to Elisa Stancil Levine's California doorstep in 2017, her world changed overnight. The devastating fire torched thousands of acres, but for Elisa, a world-class decorative artist, it was her reaction that night that cracked her wide open. A loving wife, mother, and grandmother, Elisa thought she had reckoned with her early childhood trauma. But when she fled the midnight firestorm without alerting a single neighbor, she had to ask herself: Who does that?

In This or Something Better, Elisa revisits her past and the one force in which she has always found true kinship: the wild river. Nature, her lifelong ally, gave solace. Through teen pregnancy, her baby's stillbirth, and a mystical near-death experience at eighteen, nature shaped her character, and it later informed her wildly successful career. But was there an unintended consequence?

The fresh trauma of the firestorm sparked a quest: what treasure awaited if Elisa learned to trust human nature? Vivid, poetic, and intimate, This or Something Better reveals how true healing of deep wounds happens one exquisite layer at a time--and invites us each to consider and embrace our own path toward wholeness and authenticity.

Review Quotes

"This riveting story of the 'making of a maker' is more than a memoir,
it is a testament to nature's role in creativity. The author's
persistence and intuitive spirit come through in every chapter, inviting
readers to embrace their own path toward wholeness and authenticity.
Moving, illuminating and inspiring."

--Heidi Gerpheide, publisher of California Homes Magazine

"Levine's story of resilience is framed by an account of a fire in California that threatened her home, her horses, and human life. . . . Her prose dazzles. . . . Driven by new experiences and personal revelations, the fascinating, creative memoir This or Something Better is a story about remaking a life."

--Foreword Reviews

"In this beautifully written memoir, Elisa Stancil Levine takes the reader on a wild ride through her extraordinary life journey. Through it all she explores the combination of surrender and decisive action, trust and wariness, solitude and human connection, intuition and painstaking self-inquiry, and grace and sheer hard labor that lie at the heart of the great mystery of human resilience."

--Noelle Oxenhandler, author of The Wishing Year

"Elisa Stancil Levine . . . is too much of everything--too loud, too passionate, too smart, too ambitious. Her only solace is her bond with nature. When her trust is violated she takes refuge in nature, yet keeps trying to find the relationships she wants and needs. Elisa's story is essentially a spiritual quest. Readers will feel confident that she at last discovers what it really means to be human."

--Susan Speranza, author of Ice Out and The Tale of Lucia Grandi, the Early Years

"Elisa Stancil Levine's memoir embarks on a rich journey to earlier times in the rural foothills of California--and sweeps up to date to firsthand accounts of wildfire and drought in today's Sonoma County. Her stories of growing up in a world full of both wonder and danger are unique--told with frank detail, coming to conclusions about curiosities she encounters with both balance and generosity. She fills every page with beauty and learning."

--Rebecca Lawton, author of Swimming Grand Canyon and Other Poems