With or Without Me - by Esther Maria Magnis (Paperback)

About the Book

"Where is God when your loved ones get cancer? With or Without Me is an unsparing and eloquent critique of religion. Yet Esther Maria Magnis's frustration is merely the beginning of a tortuous journey toward faith. Esther Maria Magnis knows believing in God is anything but easy, because he allows people to suffer"--

Book Synopsis

With or Without Me is a book for everyone - believer or unbeliever, Christian or atheist- who refuses to surrender to the idea that there are easy answers to the big questions in life.

Doubt about God's goodness in the face of grief is natural. With or Without Me is one woman's unsparing and eloquent memoir about the inadequacy of religion and philosophy to answer her emotional pain. Yet Esther Maria Magnis's rejection of God is merely the beginning of a tortuous journey back to faith - one punctuated by personal losses retold with bluntness and immediacy.

Magnis knows believing in God is anything but easy. Because he allows people to suffer. Because he's invisible. And silent.

"A must read for anyone who has ever pondered the meaning of life" - Lydia S. Dugdale, Author of The Lost Art of Dying

Review Quotes

A mesmerizing, compelling story about loss, family, and faith... Magnis refuses to give easy answers about her difficult faith journey, leading to life-giving answers in ways a cuter treatment wouldn't provide. --Connor Salter, Evangelical Church Library Association

Magnis recounts with brutal honesty the depth of her loss. --War Cry Magazine, UK

Esther Maria Magnis addresses traditional philosophy and religion head on in this unflinching memoir, which details her difficult sojourn away from the Christian faith and then back to it. Amid the spate of personal deconstruction narratives of the past few years, readers will appreciate this German author's distinct perspective. With or Without Me is essential reading for anyone who has ever doubted God's goodness in the midst of personal loss. --Christian Century

Faith is like a piece of quartz that Magnis turns over in her palm, examining all its angles, the sharp edges and the shine. This lends With or Without Me a thoughtful and introspective quality, contemplative without being meandering... She deftly balances the transcendent and immanent as she recounts her walk towards God, yet never reduces her discussion of faith to abstractions. --Today's American Catholic

Seldom have I read a Christian book that possessed such raw energy and passion. With or Without Me is an honest account of death, bereavement and grief which lays bare what it means to love and lose. --Inspire Magazine

"I have not known anyone since Nietzsche who shows so shockingly what a catastrophe it is to not believe in God." --Robert Spaemann

"There are not many who dare to speak of God as unabashedly as Esther Maria Magnis." --Public Forum

With or Without Me is utterly necessary. Breathtakingly honest with unflinching rawness, this book is a must read for anyone who has ever pondered the meaning of life. --Lydia S. Dugdale, author of The Lost Art of Dying: Reviving Forgotten Wisdom