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About the Book



"After fourteen-year-old Eden is raped by her brother's best friend, she knows she'll never be the way she used to be"--



Book Synopsis



A New York Times bestseller.

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel "is a poignant book that realistically looks at the lasting effects of trauma on love, relationships, and life" (School Library Journal, starre



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STARRED REVIEW "This is a poignant book that realistically looks at the lasting effects of trauma on love, relationships, and life....Teens will be reminded of Laurie Halse Anderson's Speak. VERDICT An important addition for every collection."--School Library Journal

"The Way I Used To Be is an intensely gripping and raw look at secrets, silence, speaking out, and survival in the aftermath of a sexual assault. A must-have for every collection that serves teens."--SLJ / Teen Librarian Toolbox

"A heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength."--The Boston Globe

"Bottom Line: powerful, emotional and raw."--BRANDI BREATHES BOOKS

"Don't let a book of this magnitude pass you by. Pick it up and read it because Eden's story demands to be read."--Once Upon a Twilight

"Easily one of the hardest books to read on this list. Brutal, raw and emotional... Eden's story gets told on her terms, in her voice. An honest look at one teen's struggle to find her way back to herself, to mold herself into the survivor she is."--FANGIRLISH

"Edy's exploration of the meaning of sexuality and intimacy will be thought provoking for teen readers of various experience levels, and this title is likely to find space alongside [Laurie Halse] Anderson's Speak." --BCCB

"Readers will root for her as she gathers the courage, at last, to speak up."--BN Teen blog

"This is far from a feel-good read, but I can't implore how necessary it is to read a book like this one . . . As unforgettable and stirring as Laurie Halse Anderson's Speak, Smith's provocative debut is best described as a survival story with hope and anger serving as prominent themes so fully explored they simmer off the page."--The Young Folks

"THE WAY I USED TO BE promises to be meaningful, significant, and truly unforgettable."--FIKTSHUN

"With an achingly beautiful narrative and carefully crafted plot, The Way I Used to Be is more than just an excellent book; it's an important one."--NOVEL NOVICE

"A difficult, painful journey, but teens who have experienced rape and abuse will be grateful for this unvarnished and ultimately hopeful portrait. Eden's shell-shocked narrative is an excellent narrative conduit for what Smith has to say."--Booklist "February 1, 2016 "

"The Way I Used to Be explores the aftermath of sexual assault with a precision and searing honesty that is often terrifying, sometimes eerily beautiful, and always completely true. It is The Hero's Journey through a distorted circus mirror--one girl's quest to turn desperation into courage, to become a survivor instead of a victim. Amber Smith gets it exactly right."--Amy Reed, author of BEAUTIFUL and CLEAN
Dimensions (Overall): 8.2 Inches (H) x 5.4 Inches (W) x 1.2 Inches (D)
Weight: .75 Pounds
Suggested Age: 13-19 Years
Number of Pages: 367
Genre: Young Adult Fiction
Sub-Genre: Social Themes
Publisher: Simon & Schuster
Format: Paperback
Author: Amber Smith
Language: English
Street Date: March 7, 2017
TCIN: 51874576
UPC: 9781481449366
Item Number (DPCI): 059-13-1206
Origin: Made in the USA
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Estimated ship dimensions: 5.5 inches length x 1.2 inches width x 8.3 inches height
Estimated ship weight: 1 pounds
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4.9 out of 5 stars with 45 reviews
100% would recommend
17 recommendations

Buy it!

5 out of 5 stars
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Suzy - 19 days ago, Verified purchaser
The beginning was intense & gets heavy right away but that’s what made it great for me. It was raw & you felt the emotions throughout each page.
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Insightful

5 out of 5 stars
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KIC - 1 month ago
I loved this book. It gives a really good insight to trauma. You could definitely feel the pain right along with her. I can't wait to read the sequel.
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A great read

5 out of 5 stars
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GoldenDoodle24 - 1 month ago, Verified purchaser
I read this book in a day. It kept me intrigued and turning the page wanting to know more and more! I went out and bought the sequel right away!
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GET THIS BOOK

5 out of 5 stars
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Charity - 2 months ago
This book was so good as a teen who has went through similar experiences and struggles I relate to Eden on many levels. This book was absolutely breathtaking it made me cry so much and I think it healed that part of me knowing other people go through these horrible things all the time and no one should be alone in this. I’m so excited for the sequel I’ll be sure to get it soon.
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Emotional

5 out of 5 stars
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Alanna - 3 months ago, Verified purchaser
This was a great book, so much emotion. I cried many times throughout the book.
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Yes!

5 out of 5 stars
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ACC - 4 months ago, Verified purchaser
Loved it! Great read. Can’t wait for the sequel
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10/10 Recommend

5 out of 5 stars
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Court - 6 months ago
LOVED. Such a good read!
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Best book ive read

5 out of 5 stars
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J - 6 months ago
100/10 recommend. This is honestly my top favorite book. It made me cry so much. Some parts are definitely hard to read, so big trigger warning, but it was amazing.
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Rollercoaster of all emotions, 10000000% reccomend.

5 out of 5 stars
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happyshopper01 - 7 months ago
I thoroughly enjoyed every aspect of this book and how deeply it made me feel almost every emotion possible towards the main character. Amber Smith executed this book, portrayed the main character and her struggles so beautifully. I have read a large amount of books from different genres and authors, most of which I have really enjoyed but this book… This book does not get near enough credit. 1000000% recommend.
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BUY IT.

5 out of 5 stars
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okay - 7 months ago
i literally read this book 8 times and literally told all my siblings about it and annoyed them but they kinda got hooked to it so then i started doing a read aloud for them everyday at night
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10/10

5 out of 5 stars
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Gabby - 9 months ago
This book always gets to me 😭 this is a must read, im always reading it over and over again
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READ IT.

5 out of 5 stars
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SLH912 - 11 months ago, Verified purchaser
One of my all time favorite books!
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Must read !!!!!! Just do it

5 out of 5 stars
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Targetshopper24 - 1 year ago
One of my favorite books of all times! I can’t recommend this book enough! Absolutely crushing book, made me cry. Such an emotional roller coaster
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Beautiful but check trigger warnings

5 out of 5 stars
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Tatyana - 1 year ago
Absolutely beautiful book
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Absolutely loved

5 out of 5 stars
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maggie - 5 years ago
Once I picked this up I could not put it down! I stayed up all night reading and becoming invested into the book. I was fascinated by the characters, their stories, their experiences, and their feelings. This was truly a well written story.
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5 out of 5 stars
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andrea jimenez - 5 years ago, Verified purchaser
love this book! love the characters
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Captivating

5 out of 5 stars
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Ava - 6 years ago
This book was absolutely amazing. I couldn't put it down once I picked it up. It's definitely worth picking up! Highly recommend especially high schoolers.
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